Wednesday, May 17, 2006

5 simple words

"I have feelings for you..."

Only 5 simple words but so hard to say. Ever seen those TV dramas where one person has feelings for another, they easily confesses. No matter what love triangles or circumstances they were involved in. They would always come out and tell them. Always. And the drama unfolds from there. and no matter how bad the result in the end will be, it'll work out fine. Don't you wish real life was that simple?
Well, it can. Just go up to the person and just say those 5 simple words.
"I have feelings for you..."
I know you're laughing at my face and think that what I'm saying is one of the stupidest things you've ever heard. Am I really the stupid one? I bet you're sitting there thinking,
he/she won't go for me...
I don't have any chance...

oh really? how can you be so sure? even though you think you have 3% chance the person will go for you, that's still a chance. am i right? what you lack is not confidence... it's courage.
it's been A VERY LONG time since i had butterflies in my stomach. and this time, it's a huge-ass butterfly.. most of the time, i'm not sure what to do. people are rooting for me. but i'm having a hard time rooting for myself. yes.. low-self esteem, i know. but if you know what i'm going for, you'd think the same thing.. the best of everything rolled into this undescribable beauty. and i'm not the only one persuing.. why should i be chosen from the rest? what can i offer that no one else can outdo? people say i'm doing fine. i'm not sure if i am though.. it's very hard to tell from the responses i get. anyone else in the same situation?
here's my advice which i also follow.. be patient. give it your all. if you don't you'll kick yourself in the back side in the future.. if it is everything you'll ever need, you'll definitely wait.. and this butterfly in my stomach is definitely worth the wait...
i know saying it online isn't the same with actually telling them face to face... i didn't say i had that much courage either... hehe. but for now, here goes my amount of courage...

"to that someone out there, i have feelings for you... and if one day you feel the same about me, i'll express this feeling in far more than 5 words..."