my annoyances

hello to you, my reader. apologies for no recent updates on me and my fascinating life. for it is just the opposite of that. NOT fascinating. if i had written about my routine of the past week, my post would be me blabbing about what i had for breakfast and how i was on a quest to find something worthy to watch on the box of moving picture. so, you should thank me for not updating and spared you the agony.

but today is different. i actually have something to write about. my annoyances. why? a few things.. i've been in a few too many annoying situation recently. the specifics of it will be disclosed as to not escalate things, which would be really unnecessary. and from this, it made me think about all the other things that annoys me. so here it is! sham's list of annoyances!

1. an itchy nose
yes, i shall start things off with something really silly. and i am not kidding! i tend to get these itchy fits on my nose! not quite sure how. sometimes it starts when i eat something (not sure what) and other times it's from stress.. but yes, when my nose itches, i get annoyed.

2. the urge to pee
oh yes.. another stupid one but one i hate most! all of you know this feeling very well and some might even share this annoyance with me.. it's especially annoying when i have something important to do but have to stop just because nature calls. and i have the smallest bladder in the world, so you can just imagine how very annoyed i can be in uk, (in freezing temperature) and likes to drink diet coke!

3. spoilers
if you really want to tick me off, just do this.. go watch a movie or a tv episode that i really want to watch but haven't, and then spoil it for me! it's stupid to some, i know.. but i love my entertainment. i love going to movies and i love just sitting back and watch a good episode of lost. i love the twists and turns of the stories. so, please.. do you want me to like you? keep your mouth zipped!

4. pink shirts
yup. i've emphasized this before and i'm going to emphasize it again! guys wearing pink annoys me! it doesn't matter if it's a pink shirt, or a pink cap, or pink shoes.. whatever! pink does not look good on guys - period! i don't care if it's the latest fad or how it's not a sexist colour anymore! in my book, it's still not right. i know a few of my friends out there thinks it'll be funny to give me something pink for my birthday.. i warn you now.. it won't be funny for me. so please, please, PLEASE don't even dare!

i guess those are my major annoyances.. i can think of a few more things but that'll make my post long and long posts annoys me..

i'm out!

home sweet home?

i'm back in brunei.. it's bitter sweet for me really.. things were just about to get really interesting and fun over in england. by now, my friends that i planned to go to rome with should be there by now. i hope their flight was a good safe one. i hope you guys have fun over there without me. i miss you guys loads already..

anyway, i've been back for a whole day now! my flight was ok. before i left for the airport, iffah and i stayed up the whole night! so, it didn't take me long to go to sleep on the plane. usually, everytime on the plane, there would always be something that'll annoy throughout the flight.. a crying baby is the most common one. this time it wasn't a screaming infant.. you'd think there's nothing more annoying than that right? wrong.. coughers. the dreaded coughers are the next most annoying thing on a plane.. and guess what? sitting on the opposite aisle to me was a whole family of coughers! sigh.. i have no idea what was wrong with the family of four.. it was like they were sitting behind the plane's jet propeller! they were coughing like mad! thankfully, i was too out of it and couldn't hear them struggling for breath.

arrived in HOT brunei.. sweated (for the first time in 4 months) just as soon as i got off the plane! ali picked me up and had a quick lunch. we caught up. a few interesting things happend between us. it was good seeing ali again.

anyway, i'm off.

ugghh..

hello folks.. a new twist to the whole 'me going back home' thing.. i just received an email from the office.. my flight won't be on the 19th.. it's on the.... wait for it... 17th! which means, i'm going home the day after tomorrow! ':s again, i am far from thrilled by this turn of event.. annoyed is more like it..

anyway, i'm in southampton (AGAIN for the 2nd time this week) to gather my things and going back to london later.

so, i'll see you guys in brunei sooner than expected!

ignore the last post

yeah.. just ignore it.. i'm not going to rome now.. instead i'm back home. am i excited? sadly, i'm not.. i was looking forward to staying here for winter, just having fun hanging out in london and ofcourse, going to rome (which i already paid for..) so, when will i go? you guys are gonna love the irony.. my flight is on the 19th, the same day as my flight to rome. oh yeah.. i'm laughing on the outside but on the inside, i'm just weeping..

i just don't know.. i mean, don't get me wrong.. this way, i can see my family and friends back home again! but on the other hand.. sigh.. i don't know..
i've been having huge doubts about all this.. i don't know..

anyway, i'm off..
to my friends in uk: sorry guys.. have fun without me!
to my family & friends back home: i shall see you real soon yeah? can't wait!

to pizza & pasta land!

sorry for being MIA for a while.. i'm in london at the moment bumming around. i've packed all my stuff from southampton and made the painful journey to london lugging them on my back. oh yes, lisa was the biggest load of them all.

anyway, can't stay online for long.. brunei hall's internet is crappy and i'm in a cybercafe that tries to get every penny from you! ':s

just a really quick update from me!

1. i'm not going home anytime soon, it seems.. i did tell everyone that i finish and will be coming home this december.. sorry, due to unforseen circumstances, i am staying here for the winter break.

2. and i am taking advantage of that by going to rome with a few friends! ':) ':) ':)

my time's almost up..
i shall update about my journey to europe as soon as i can.. ':)

moving on..

man.. what a week it has been.. and it's not even friday yet! ':s

i finished all my classes and short courses last saturday (yes, i had my dreaded exam on a weekend). so now, i'm absolutely free! as soon as the exam finished, i packed my stuff and went to london. it had been almost a month since my last visit.. so, i was really looking forward to just do nothing and chill. i stayed longer this time cause, like i said, i had nothing else to do. i planned on going to follow people to uni but it didn't turn out that way. pity.. i was really looking forward to uni life. through out my stay there, i just hung around with brunei hall peeps until 5am and wake up around 3pm and the cycle continues..

major things happened this time around.. but forgive me for not telling any of 'em in this post. i'm not much in a sharing mood at the moment. actually, i'm not that eager to talk to anyone about it anyway.. let's just say that, secrets were revealed which opened my eyes and now i can finally move on after for so long of confusion.. i'm sure you're all very curios to know what i am on about but all the details matters not.. the important thing is i can finally let go and am a much happier man.

but what about everything? will things change? - yes. did i believe the things you told me? - ummm.. not really.

ok.. i'm blabbing. i'm gonna stop.
i'm out

got frequencies on the brain

just to let you know, i won't be updating anytime soon..
i have my gmdss exam (it's about radio communication and sending distress at sea) coming up and i really REALLY need to hammer this down.. if i fail it, it'll cost me 105 quid. ':s oh yeah..

so, don't miss me too much!
i'm out.

happy birthday everyone!

i just realised that there were a lot of birthdays in november! so, this is a special post to all the november babies!

aizah
ezzah
memie
afifah
dee
reza
sulhi
yani
nabs
haniq
yours truly, ME

that's all i can remember at the top of my head.. sorry if i missed the people that i should know out. happy birthday to you too.. ':)
as a present from me, i give you a personal video! it's an old one but i think it's nice and have been meaning to post it. it's me, ali (behind the camera) and a few friends from brunei hall (amir & cameo of asri) jamming one morning. apologies for the drumming. it might not be nice.. it was all spontaneous. enjoy birthday people!

at keele with the keelians

what a long and tiring week i had.. all suited like a fireman, i learned which fire extinguishers to use on what kind of fires, how to hose down of nasty fires and being a hero saving dummies from a burning building. it was exhausting indeed.. a lot of carrying around long hoses, being around scorching infernos and i can still feel the pain on my shoulders from carrying those heavy air tanks on my back. and how much portion of the training was on "saving a cute little kittens 1 of 9 lives from a tree"? NONE! yup, don't be fooled people.. being a fire defender is not all about being up a ladder and saving mr. snowballs.

and to top of the draining week, i had a terrible thursday.. this too, i'm afraid, is undisclosed for now. don't ask, cause i won't talk about it.. let's just say that it'll change my life.. well, if it happens, that is..

moving on! so, to let loose and refresh. i decided, very suddenly, to spend the weekend at my sister's place and see how she's getting along! ':) it was the perfect time to visit. i was free on friday and my next short course won't be till tuesday. so, it'll make the long trip worthwhile. i called her up and told her to expect me the next day! she was very surprised but eager of my arrival nonetheless.
it took me a good 4 hours to get to keele. thank lord for the invention of ipods. i don't want to bore you people with the details.. there was a lot hanging outs in the kitchen, an open house at one of the freshies, watched an awesome movie; the prestige (watch it, it's good!), bought almost one of everthing in tesco and a tour of the campus. that place is huge! oh, and i also dyed my hair red! haha! nothing too bright.. the girls were bored, so they made an evening out of me.


i'm out!

pictures

not much to post today.. just thought i'd add some pics to show people..
well.. actually, i did have a great time in london last weekend.. i should write about that.. hmmm... nah.. maybe next time.. too lazy now.

an advert poster for mobile phones! haha!

me being a host!


me with two very lovely ladies


shopping in portsmouth

omg! an actualy dorayaki! i've wondered what it would be like in real life..

the maroon family!

22

hey everybody..
just a quick post this time.. i want to thank everyone who wished me a happy birthday! it meant so much to me. you have no idea.. thank you so much. ':)

i wanted to post a deep and meaningful birthday post but decided not to.. in short, my 21 was full of ups and downs. and i'm sure my 22 will be the same. i celebrated my birthday quietly.. just hung out in my room watching tv. bought myself a few presents.. that's all really.. nothing blog-worthy..

i can't wait to go to london tomorrow! bsu raya celebration is this weekend! it's gonna be so awesome! some of my old friends will be there and my sister's gonna be there! can't wait to see them all!

ummmm.. what else shall i share, while i'm still online blogging. oh ok..

1. the season 4 of the o.c. is airing.. i cannot believe what happened.. (sorry for sounding like a 16-year-old teenage girl..) but seriously, it's just.. omg.. you have to see it.. i don't wanna spoil it for everyone..

2. no more classes! yup! i only have short courses to do and i'm off after that! i should fly home sometime in december.

3. i'm in dying need to cut my hair.

4. i've started reading novels again. current book: labyrinth by kate mosse

can't think of anything else.. so, i'm off.
thanks again for the wishes people! i wished i got to celebrate it with you guys..

i love the internet

i love the internet.. a major part of knowledge.. endless amounts of information.. especially useless ones too! hehe. i was really bored last night, i finished watching what tv shows i had on my harddisk, so i turned to the internet for some entertainment.. and here are some of my favourites! a couple of them are in japanese but you'll know what's going on.. i love the cute kid playing table tennis! the one in yellow! super cute!

watch and enjoy!

Easy Game - video powered by Metacafe

Jay Leno - Phony Photo Booth - video powered by Metacafe

Do Not Laugh - video powered by Metacafe

the fly and the mosquito joke..

now now.. calm down.. i know you're all eager to hear the most fantastically funny joke.. be patient.. all in due time.. first, i shall tell the great weekend i had! again, my mission was food! open houses were the main attraction this time.. mmm... food, glorious food.. this was the first raya i celebrated in 2 years! so, nothing was going to stop me from going.. be it hail or storm, nothing will get in my way.. not even my exams, which i was going to sit on the very monday.. ':p

on the very night i arrived, the heavens opened up to me.. there was an open house already that evening! i changed and was eager to go out the door towards the smell of good ol' hari raya food. i couldn't stop smiling.. i soaked in the wonderful atmosphere.. colourful traditonal clothes.. well lit beautiful homes.. food that could feed the whole africa.. people talking to eachother having a pleasent time.. hari raya, there's nothing like it.. how i missed it so..

after stomachs were full and very satisfied, we went back and rested both mind and tummy. regaining energy was very important for the following day was to be a really long day.. since the night before, i didn't eat a thing.. i calmed my growling tummy.. "be patient.. you won't be empty for too long.." i reassured.. 3 houses were to be visited that day.. food, glorious food..

slowly and in tiny portion.. that is the golden rule in 'all-you-can-eat buffet'. same rules applies with open houses. slowly and in tiny portions were my strategy all throughout the endless eating bonanza. i had almost everything that were on the table (excluding cutlery and the host's flower decorations), i had a try at everything! mmmm...

half way through the third house, my stomach had enough and called it quits.. ofcourse, after a full stomach, the eyelids stops funtioning.. man, was i sleepy.. and the 6-hours of walking around had a factor in it as well.. after when we called it a night or rayaing, we went back.. but the night was far from over.. iffah, amy, nadiah, fez and i went out for a movie. saw 3 was playing. amy was very eager to watch it.. too eager.. hehe.. it was a good movie.. very gory.. but a very good story and twists to the plot was well done.. amy emphasized it often.. we started to get worried about her.. i could just imagine her being jigsaw and torturing people but with a sweet smile..haha! after the movie, i finally went to bed, i couldn't help but smile.. it was a wonderful day.. ':)

i planned to go to keele and visit my sister for their open house but couldn't make it.. too expensive to get there just for the day.. sorry sis.. i promise to see you next time..

okay! on to the joke! it's copyrighted by amy amalina (since i have a lot of amys that i know, i shall refer to you as that.. hehe). the joke is soooo good, i had to hear it, i don't a dozen time in 2 days! ok.. here goes..

what is the difference between a mosquito and a fly?

give up?

a mosquito can fly but a fly can't mosquito!

uuggghhh... i know... i got 2 groans and a 3 rolled eyes after i told that joke to people.. sigh.. haha!

on a completely unrelated matter to today's post, i just wanna say, i'm relieved and very very happy.. details are undisclosed until further notice.. hehe.. ':)

i'm out.. thanks for a great weekend guys! i'll see you real soon!

i cringed..

nothing special to post.. just some random ramblings here..

after 3 very long years, the new evanescence album i finally out! 'the open door' was finally in my hands.. the first thing i did, i opened my laptop, connected my ipod to it ready to transfer the music immediately.. i popped in the cd.. had a listen to a track.. all of a sudden, i cringed.. i shook my head.. must be a bad song.. even so, i carried on listening till the end.. i relaxed myself. on to the next track.. i cringed again.. it was worse than the last.. after i finished listening to the whole album, i sat back and i swear i think i my eyes started to tear up.. except for a song or two, the whole album did not even give a light tug to my attention. not like the first album.. every single song i hear, i loved instantly. what the heck happened?

then, i realised that i wasn't using any proper sound amplifier.. just the speakers on my laptop. it won't do any justice to any song i play on it.. so, i composed myself and blamed it on the speakers.. so, i grabbed my headphones.. everything sounds awesome in it..

i took a deep breath and played the tracks again.. a huge improvement. even though the songs sounds better, it still didn't make me fall in love with all of them.. they sound so gothic now and most of the tracks sounds so out of tune in some parts of it..

the songs that i predict becoming their singles:

weight of the world

lithium

all that i'm living for

like you

if it was their last album, i would have a hard time picking.. ':s

while on the subject of good albums, there's an album i really absolutely love right now. hoobastank's 'every man for himself'. a huge joy to listen to from beginning till the end.. listen to it folks!

i'm out

the little cute shy lion

hello everyone. everytime i post, i seem to start off by apologising for not updating so often. and today's post is no exception. ':) sorry for not posting. it's been a hectic week with exams and stuff.. but for now, i can rest a tad bit cause my next exam is next week..so, last weekend, i unwound by going to my favourite place - london brunei hall! hehe. it seems that i go there almost all the time.. well, too much i think cause a few of the new people there thought i was actually a PR there! haha!

on saturday, the brunei hall people organised a charity sale. it was like a garage sale with some of the money going to charity. food was also sold there, which was the main reason for my london visit that time.. hehe. it was a very fun day. and my most favourite part was the face painting! kids come and can get their face painted for just 50p. haha! it wasn't like a professional work by a hollywood make-up artist though but the kids were still happy with the outcome. and the ones that didn't (believe me, there were some.. haha!) we just gave them some stickers and candy and they were happy as a clam! hehe.

my most favourite customer was this really really cute 3-year-old kid! she was soooo quite and really shy. didn't smile or even say anything. when we were painting her face she kept moving and holding her mommy. when we asked why, she said the paint brushes tickles! awwww... when we finally finished, it was so awesome. we did a decent job but that wasn't the rewarding part. it was when she looked herself in the mirror. she had a huge smile on her face! awwwww...

other things that were happening that day:

there was a 'zakat booth' for people to pay their zakat. and there was an London Brunei Student Society (LBSS) registration booth. it's a society that organises functions and activities of major events for the other students. i would join but seeing that i'm in southampton, i wouldn't be able to contribute that much. but they noticed that every time that i come over, i helped them out. so, they decided to make me a member anyway! haha! so yes, i'm in LBSS now and will be an usher in the upcoming raya celebration in london! ':)

thanks for the great weekend guys!

later people

a great weekend! too bad it ended..

hello everyone? how are you? good? how are things? swell? ok, enough about you! i had an absolutely fantastic weekend! ':) as you all know, i went to the all american rejects (AAR) concert on friday! it was just simply amazing! first of all, let me just say, last week was one of the most horrible week i have ever had.. if you're expecting for a detailed explanation, forget it.. it happened and there's nothing i can do about it.. i'll just deal with it in the future.. so for now, i want to forget all about it.. if there is such a thing as yin and yang and the balance of the universe and stuff, i guess my horrible week and the concert were of equal intensity! AAR made my bad week worth it - and more!

anyway, on to the story of my most fab weeked!

as soon as class ended on friday noon, i just changed and went straight to the bus station. i wanted to come as early as i could. even though the concert starts at 7pm, from my past gig-going experience, it's never too early to que up for a concert. went on the 2pm train and i arrived in london in 1 hour and 30min! that's an all time record, i might add.. sigh.. stupid me, i broke my own rules.. waited for 5pm to go.. i was in brixton an hour and a half early but the line was already very long.. obviously, i wasn't the only biggest fan.

there i was, waiting in line alone.. (which btw, i have absolutely no idea what the big deal is about going alone to a concert.. people actually pitied me?! ':s watch out for a future post on this) anway, there i was in the que, listening to AAR while i opened my fasting, when suddenly tyson ritter pops out from a window above! the crowd went crazy as he juggled an orange and a couple of apples. then he threw them to the crowd! that was cool.. after what felt like forever standing on the same spot, the line finally moved at 7pm. some people were buying the merchandises already, but i went past it and headed straight to the hall. luckily there wasn't a lot of people yet so i rushed to the front. i was 3 people behind the stage! i stood my ground and guarded my position. 30 long minutes later, the lights went out, the crowd goes wild! but their screams were wasted.. the show started with a special guest band.. and they were on stage for a very long 45min! and we didn't get just one guest.. oh no.. we got two! both were alien to me.. but their songs were nice..

finally... the last unknown band went off stage.. the crew made their final stage preparation. the lights went out. loud screams filled the huge room. music was heard.. coloured lights slowly luminated the stage.. AAR's show officially started! i can't even describe it in words how amazing it was.. you had to be there to feel the energy they gave out in their performance.. well, here's the next best thing.. i shot a couple of decent videos.. advance apologies for the constant movement.. it's hard not to jump around in a concert, you know.. hehe. so, crank up the volume and enjoy..

dance inside

it ends tonight

move along

the video doesn't do them justice.. you had to be there to know the feeling.. like i said, over and over again, it was simply amazing.. ':) oh yes, sorry for the screwy part of move along.. some jerk, wanted to be carried forward.. you can see him in the video.. ugghh..
photos on the concert coming up.. these were the only nice shots i could get.

should've come earlier.. much earlier..

AAR rocking down the house!

tyson & chris doing what they do best!

the all american rejects giving out their energy

so, that was my weekend.. a truly unforgetable memory.. as of today, i'm a bigger fan of them. i'm still trying to get over the fantastic feeling.. but somehow, i think it'll take me a while to get over.. a very long while.. ':)

a quick birthday shout out to syai! happy birthday syai! have a good one.. miss ya loads!

i'm out

can't wait for friday

howdie everyone.. again, many apologies for the lack of updates.. same reason as always.. nothing to update really.. plus, i've been really busy with exams. just got the result on last week's one.. really don't want to talk about that.. and in 2 hours, i have another exam to deal with.. and on friday too. man.. so can't wait for the weekend.. and what better way to let loose than a concert! ':) definitely looking forward to that.

anyway, on my last post, i forgot to wish everyone a happy fasting month. selamat berpuasa everyone. the month for patience and hunger! hehe. also, this is usually the second most depressing time of the year for me.. ':( hungry and without my family to break fast with.. i miss going to pasar malam and buy every food they had. i miss being woken up by my mom to eat sahur. i miss buying things for raya at the very last minute.. new shoes, new samping, new perfume, new everything just for the special event that follows fasting. so, mash, consider yourself very lucky. ':) and when's the most depressing time of year for me? ofcourse, it's hari raya.. i miss goin' to my extended families' houses.. i miss going on convoy with my friends and just visit everyone.. i miss raya A LOT.. but thankfully, this year, i have my sister on the same hemisphere with me. that'll save me a tear or two..

to mash: sigh.. wish i could spend raya with you.. do you realise we never even seen eachother at raya much less spent it together? sigh.. anyway, happy puasa to you. i'll email you real soon yeah? miss you loads!

alright, i'm out.

a piece of home right here...

sorry for the lack of updates guys.. been one heck of a week. fortunately, in turn, it means there's a lot to post today. so enjoy..

went to london last weekend. a lot of people i wanted to see. but an important reason to go was get lisa back from ali's grubby hands.. hehe. it was cool seein' him again. especially so seeing him all good and walking again. again, sorry to hear about your misfortune man.. but i'm sure things'll be fine.. more than fine.. infact, it'll be perfect. look at it this way.. think of it as a long vacation before you start work. by now, you should be back in brunei already. have a great time over there. thanks for taking care of my drums.. boy.. when you said you took her apart, you really did take her apart! damn.. took me a while to put her back together again.. haha!

another person i wanted badly to meet up didn't show.. ':( you owe me big time! you know who you are.. hehe

and finally, the most important person whom i wanted to see was none other than my dear sister, faye!! ':) i'm still tryin to get over it! seeing her, HERE! there i was, in brunei hall's lobby, waiting for hours for her to come.. and suddenly, a familiar figure walked in.. dazed and curious about the new environment.. haha!

after gathering all the newbies' luggage and having their introductary talk, she ran up to me excited and pleading me to take her around london. haha! she was so 'sakai'! she kept saying how cool england is and how cold it is here. we went around oxford street and looked at a few shops. she was there for not more than a few hours and she already wanted to go shopping! she noticed all the prices seemed very cheap! haha! and i kept reminding her to multiply everything by 3. haha! man.. i still can't believe it.. there i was.. taking the bus with my sis! it's so awesome..

anyway, other than that, things are so-so.. i was sick for a few days.. everyone's sick nowadays.. but i'm feeling better now. except for the coughing fits i usually get after being sick. it's exam time now. yup.. i haven't been studying though.. always at the very last minute.. hehe. i've been watching alot of tv lately. downloaded lost cause my sister kept insisting it's a great series. so, i decided to see what the fuss is all about for myself. i downloaded a lot of movies aswell. i just finished watching the lake house. you probably remember from a few posts ago, i mentioned about it. it's a nice mushy movie for the girls. while we're on the subject of movies, you guys should really get your hands on hard candy! it's so cool! here's the trailer..

hard candy

to my sis: have a great time here.. i'm so thankful you're here with me. it just makes things much more bareable. ':) i'll see you real soon!

AAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

OH MY GOD! OH MY GOD! OH MY GOD! picture speaks a thousand words...




yes!! it is in my possesion now!! the little piece of paper that lets me in the most awesome concert ever!!! i just got it just now! haha! pretty useless post but i wanted to show it to everyone so badly! hahahaha!

anyway, i'll see you guys around.. i'll be 'moving along' now! (hehehe! get it? get it?!) haha! bye!

lonely no more

hey people.. haven't updated in a while cause i didn't want you, my fans, to doze off reading my blog. but here i am now with plenty to tell.. my day has been relatively good. oh, except for when i almost got ran over by a van. don't worry people, i'm fine. here's the whole story.. it was a nice afternoon. so, i thought i'd go for a nice walk at the beach. i've never gone for a walk before cause i'm not a big fun of the bright hot sphere up in the sky. so there i was about to cross the street while listening to THE ALL AMERICAN REJECTS (i will explain the enthusiasm later).. there was this huge bush blocking my vision, right next to me.. i was stepping on the tarmac when suddenly, this van cross just inches from my nose! n it wasn't moving slow either.. i just stood there shocked.. i checked for injuries.. all good.. turned down the volume of the ipod and went my merry way.. and people say i don't live a dangerous life.. ':)

the newbies just came today.. talked to them. they seem cool. now, i'm not all alone anymore. anyway, on to the main topic of my post this time!

ALL AMERICAN REJECTS!

i'm going to their concert at the end of the month! wohhooooo!!! i was looking for worthy gigs to go to online and i found out that they are going to be in london! i bought the tickets instantly! it is gonna be so awesome! not goin' with anyone in particular.. yet. ':)

to someone specific out there: so come! let's go!

i sooo can't wait!

alright, that's it from me.

time to go away again..

the month went by so very fast.. and now, it's time to go back to uk.. usually, this is where i start a deeply serious post on how things has changed. how the places that i used to remember how they were aren't anymore and most importantly, how the people that i left behind changed since i went.. yup, i could go into it but i won't. i finally came to realise that i should expect nothing less. ofcourse things change. ofcourse not everything will stay the same, no matter how much you hope and pray that time would stand still until my return. things change and i know that now. but i have the memories and for that i cherish them with all my heart.

anyway, yes, it's time to leave again. i'm leaving in the very early hours of 11am (yes, that is very early in my lazy and unproductive world). i'll be flying off to singapore and will be staying there for, wait for it... 10 hours. yes, you read right.. 10 freakin' long hours. my dad says i can actually go out the airport and walk around. any truth to this guys? please tag. i hope it's true.. my brain will rot from boredom if i get stuck in the airport for that long.. at 11pm, i would be off on a 12hour flight to great brittain. so, how will things be from this uk stay? well, since i'll be on my own this time around, i predict A LOT of dull moments but it won't be that bad, i would think. as long as i have my internet, laptop, dvds and lisa, i'll be a happy bunny. another sure thing is this time, i'm not gonna waste my time over there. i promised myself to do some stuff but i haven't done them yet.

1. go to europe. specifically france. why? disney land ofcourse! i promised the 7-year-old in me that. so, can't let the small guy down.

2. watch a manchester united footie match! now that reading is in the premier league, MU will be going there for their away match, so why not! it's only a 30min train ride.

3. ....i'm sure there are some other bunch of stuff i want to do.. don't remember them right now.

and finally, the verdict of my summer break! how was it? ':) i spent it with my family.. ofcourse it was awesome. and better yet.. i'll get to see one of them in uk real soon. that'll be a major help for my uncurable homesickness...

i'm out!

not so much...

so... how much stuff will i post up this time cause it's been a while since my last? yup, the answer has already been given in the title... not so much... yes, that's right... other than a couple of highlights, it has been a very dull dull week for yours truly... so, why bother blogging? i ask myself that too..

haven't gone out that much lately.. the usual reasons are:

1. no place to go (ofcourse.. it is brunei)

2. when there is a place to go to, there's no one to go with..

3. when there is someone to go with, there's absolutely ziltch things to do!

and because of these reasons, i am at home, bored to tears and very close to diving off the cliff in front of my house so as to have at least the tiniest bit of excitement.. exaggerating, i am not...

so, what upcoming adventures will i be up to in the near future? none what so ever, i'm afraid.. although there's a uk exhibition tomorrow at gadong.. so, what the heck.. i'm gonna crash that. i'm just gonna go to one of them and say, "excuse me. i'm 21 and learning in the uk at the moment and will be earning more than 4 grand in the very near future but i'm not happy.. do you have any university recommendation for me?"

do you think they'll do any bodily harm on me? ':)

i'm going with iffah and her two friends, amy & nadia (who used to like to confuse me with their names! haha!) p.s.: sorry for waking you just now, iffah! hehe.

so, after tomorrow's day out, what lies ahead? hmmmm... watching my 9 cats licks themselves? nahhh.. done that yesterday. watch paint dry? i know it's old stuff but hey, who doesn't like a classic? or watch a snail finish a 100m race? oh gosh! so many things to do, so little time.. what's a guy to do..

a trip to miri!

yup! my day trips get farther and farther... this time, me and my bst mates decided to go to miri! the whole thing was very spontaneous. a few days before the miri trip, we were joking around in naqib's new huge car, "ke miri siuk ni pakai kereta ani!" then, the next day, memie texted me asking if i wanted to join them to go to miri! i was very excited because i wanted to do some serious shopping and where else would it be better to shop at than miri?! very oddly enough, i was the only one who was intended to go on a shopping spree... the others just wanted to hang out. ':s

after having breakfast, we finally went off around 9.30am. so with just us young people in the car, who knew the way? no one.. yup, that's right! everyone had never gone to miri by themselves or without the rents. there was nothing to worry about really.. we had a plan. the plan was to head to belait, pass it and go right to the very end of brunei... after that, we depended solely on memory. hey, i didn't say it was a good plan...

after a few wrong turns, we eventually got to the shops we wanted to go to. i must say, i was rather dissapointed.. i was hoping to go wild and shop till i dropped but in the end, i ended buying only 2 things. a fossil watch (wohoo! can't wait to see that on my creditcard bill! ':s) and a converse bag (which btw i was really hesitant cause i wanted it red but they only had brown.. but to hell with it.. i wanted to spend the money)

all in all, it was still a fun day.

a trip to tutong!

hey people. i don't update so often but i promised ali i would so here it is...


went to tutong today with iffah to visit our friend ka emy. she's flying back to uk tomorrow so, we wanted to spend some time with her before she leaves. and she lives in tutong, so it was a very unusual hang out spot for us. especially for iffah, whom has never EVER been to tutong in her life! so she was pretty much acted like an overseas tourist. haha! i, on the other hand, used to live there all my childhood... so, it was great to see the place again. i took the opportunity to visit my old pals from the past. it was awesome seeing my childhood bestfriend again after not seeing him for over 2years!


i left tutong for over 4 years ago... it was dead then and it's still very dead now... there was absolutely nothing to do! thank god i moved. as i drove along the places i used to see everyday, i was hit with a sense of nostalgia. the school i used to study at... the shops i used to walk around in... the barber shop i used to go to... sigh... sweet memories...


after a long chat with my tutong mates, we had lunch somewhere nearby and after that we went to the civic centre. luckily for us, they were having a go-kart race there. so we went there to see one of the biggest event to ever hit tutong (i assumed ':))

me n iffah being very touristy... hehe

the one time i DON'T want them to crash

tourist!!!

happy 21st birthday ali! may God bless you always my dear friend... see you real soon dude.

the long awaited update

hey people! long time since my last post. as you may or may not know by now, i am back home in brunei! yey! it was a surprise comeback! not even my family knew. well, my dad did spoil it a little.. sigh.. oh and you know what the first thing my mom said to me?

"isshh... you dyed your hair again???"

hahaha! love you too mom! sigh... anyway, it's been super fun since i got back. did a whole lot this past 2weeks. went to tattoo (although that's not a major highlight since it sucked hard! except for china & phillippines. they were the best!), had a bbq at the beach with the brunei hall peeps (that was awesome! thanks guys!), tanglong (which was okay. wished i could see the whole show though..) and the usual hangouts with beloved friends and family.

i'm going back to uk on 2nd september. sigh... 2 more weeks left. sorry that this is a short update. i'd rather go have fun than sitting in front of the computer typing.

oh yeah! a huge congratulations to my sister for getting the scholarship! i wasn't worried for a second. i knew you'd get it even before you sat for your a-level exams. i'm so proud and happy for you. ':)

bye for now!

haven't updated for a while.. couldn't really find the time and anything worthy to post about. it would be a lie if i said that i was busy cramming for my exams cause i didn't really study that much. had 3 exams last week.. passed 2 of them, still waiting on the result for the other one. gonna have another exam this wednesday and that's it for this semester! a whole month of summer break! what do i plan to do then? i was thinking of travelling. if i can scrounge up enough money, i'll go to europe. if not, england will do just fine. i have a friend who's in newcastle.. i might go there. but wouldn't be much fun, since i'll be travelling alone and stuff.

anyway, i had a fun time visiting ali for the weekend in milton keynes. we just hung out, caught up with eachother's life and just talked. oh, we had this debate about the plural to 'fish'.. he said that there was such a thing as 'fishes'! yeah i know.. i didn't believe it at first but i checked online.. the plural of 'fish' is actually 'fishes'! those of you who know your english better than you know your own mother tongue, could you confirm all this for us? thanks

then i told him something he didn't know.. did you guys know that the plural for 'money' is 'monies' or 'moneys'? yup.. hard to believe but grammatically true..

well, that's it from me. a very pointless post, i know.. hey, take it or leave it..

................................ please take it.. i have a dull life. i promise i'll do better next time!

by the way, thanks for those of you who took my quiz! u all did well! except for sham's stalker. you haven't been doing your job very well since you only got 60%! haha!

oh, and another thing.. i noticed that what people usually get wrong on my quiz was which movie i thought was the funniest. the people who got it wrong chose 'dude, where's my car?' as the answer! ':s i'm not sure what gave them that idea. it was a funny movie, i admit.. but not that funny..

how well do u know me?

my sister gave me this quiz on how well i know her and i didn't do so well but atleast i passed! hehe. it seemed kinda fun, so i made a quiz of my own! so try it out and see how well you do. cause my contacts is so full and from the quiz, i'll know who to delete! kidding!

my quiz

i did mash's quiz and i got an awesome 90%! there you go mash. that's how much i care about you! hehe
let me know if you made your own quizzes!

adding up my life

as usual, not much is up. the usual boring lectures, the usual boring sitting in my room doing absolutely nothing productive and the usual dullness that fills up my time. exams are coming up. my first exam is next week. so, i should be doing some major studying since i have plenty of time in my hands. ofcourse, the brunei student way is to study at the very last minute. and who am i to break the, oh so proud, tradition. ':) not too worried actually. it's not that hard of a paper. calculation mostly and i do love numbers. and speaking of numbers, i shall use maths to tell you what's goin' on in my life. let's see...

since the guys left, it's been really dull. and all my other wonderful friends (yes that's you!) are not even 20miles anywhere near me, my social life is nonexistent.

social life = 0

after the whole mix up with the bank, i can count all my money that i have left with my hands...

finance = 7pounds

to have fun, all i need are my friends and money so therefore,

fun = 0 + 7pounds = a bus ride to town and buy a candy bar to eat BY MYSELF.

okay, i do have my health... that counts as something to be happy about.

health = 65

*notices a pack of skittles next to the laptop... then remembers all the junk food bought yesterday*

health = 65 - 40 = 25

and finally, love life. ahhh yes... how can i possibly forget about that. wished i could, but sadly, i can't. haven't been in a relationship for 2years. and even then, it wasn't actually official. so yes, i know it's hard to believe ladies, but it's true... i'm still available. so at the moment:

love life = -30 (i know... i didn't think it was possible too)

so, to sum up.

my life = 0 + a candy bar + 25 - 30 = -5

yup... that's it ladies & gentlemen. that's my life nowadays. -5... math never lies.

now if you'll excuse me, i need to go online and find out how to tie a noose...

my room is complete

it really sucks now that the guys left but i adjusted nicely with all the cool stuff they left me! i felt like it was my birthday! here's the list of what i got from them:

• a fan (perfect for the summer heat!)
• a tv (which i am actually watching a dvd with while i'm typing this right now!)
• an iron
• a shoe rack
• a fridge
• and a lot of other random goodies ':)

now, i don't have to leave my room! anyway, nothing to update really... yani, memie & fifah left this morning. and now, the guys and i that are left here are scratching our heads, figuring out what to occupy our time with.

ummmm... can't think of anything to say. here's my reply to my tag.

cassy: i know! it hurt like hell didn't it! but still very worth it. ':) what colour did dye your hair?

dee: yes yes. i like to colour my hair. dull wah kalau hitam saja... hehe.

nerdster: ummm... your name sound fimiliar... not sure who you are though... sorry. who are you?

my sister: lip piercing and hair dying are two completely different things. if you want to dye your hair, that's fine with me. heck, i'll dye it for you! haha!

season 3 comes to an end...

the deckies of my year just went home this morning. at 5am, which is so stupid since their flight is at 5pm! it'll be a very amusing 10hours in the airport for them! now, the deckies are gone. in 2 weeks, the engineers will be going. and with them, goes my social life. not really close with the other bruneians that are here. so yeah, soon it's going to be a very dull 5months for me.. ':(

but as long as i still have internet (the source of all my entertainment) then i'll be fine..

well, not really much to post. oh, world cup is officially over for me. cristiano ronaldo is a freakin' ass! he better not come close to rooney when they get back to manchester. so, to my sister, glad to have you back. hehe.

anyway, to my bst friends. thanks a lot for everything. i hope you have the very best of times back home. good luck with your next sea phase! bye guys!

p.u.inc for life!

doin' something girly with the girls...

i hate my new hair.. it's too damn short! so, to make myself feel better about it, i decided to dye it again! what colour this time? ofcourse, i always do natural colours.. and what better natural hair colour than red! hehe. red copper amber to be exact.

i usually dye my hair by myself but this time it was different. i wanted to get highlights aswell and i've never done highlights by myself. and in the box there was this plastic head cap with holes in 'em. so, i guessed it was for some of my hair to be pulled through it and highlighted. and i can't do that on my own. so i seeked helped. and since a few of the guys' girlfriends are here and they were more experienced, i decided to give them the job...

it was a very sad sight, when i walked in their room. they were just lying on the floor, sweating from the heat wave and just stared into space, slowly dying of boredom...

stupidly, i asked, "you guys busy?"

yani's eyes rolled and memie had her arms out, "do we look busy, sham?"

haha! so i asked them if they wanted to do something girly. "dye my hair!"

their eyes suddenly lit up and shouted "BAH!"

they were alive again! haha!

i was treated like a king as i sat on the chair while my hair was being groomed.. ahhh..

colouring my hair red was okay but the second part of it was one of the most painful experience ever! i put my plastic hat on (which the guys were very amused by) and they used this small hook to pull out parts of my hair through the hole. i cringed in agony everytime they poke my scalp. and these ladies weren't exactly gentle. so yeah.. it was the longest 30min of my life..

but in the end, it was worth the pain. it came out great!

so now, i'm a bit happier about my hair. ':)

to nabs: i will post pictures of my new do just as soon as i get a good hair day. hehe.

laters

damn saloon...

went to london on the weekend... and for the last time. well, til everyone comes back from summer holz. it was really quiet over there with most of the bruhall people already went back. even so, i still had a fun time. ':) most of the time, i hung out with asri, nads & qil. we didn't do much, just the usual jalan-jalan, plenty of games of big two (which btw, qil force people to play cause she was on a winning streak! hehe) and mawar-ing.

on sunday, we went to new cross gate cause asri wanted to get his art stuff before his uni closes for the summer and we wanted to see his uni, so we tagged along. the first time i went past there, i thought it was just a building but it's actually pretty huge! unfortunately the place was already closed for some reason. but the 40-minute tube ride wasn't a complete waste though. we went to a pub nearby and ate a pizza and watched the england-ecuador match. didn't stay long cause it was almost 5pm and i had a train to catch.

oh, i had a haircut too btw... i freakin' hate it! but people say it's ok. i hate it.. and no, i shall not post a picture of my new hairdo. so, don't waste you're breath asking for it.

qil & asri are goin' home this wednesday. sorry i can't see you guys off. have the best time home!

the case of the missing socks...

this is another senseless post, so if you were expecting more you'd be disappointed. so look away now! before i explain what my title for my post is about, i'll tell you what i've been up to.

like my last random ramblings, i didn't do much today either. class were boring as usual except for my emergency response lecture. on most days, it was my routine challange to stay awake in it but today we watched a documentary on freak waves or rogue waves. after just watching poseiden a week before, the video captured my full attention. it explained how these very rare occurances were formed and how it could happen anywhere in the world... being hit by one is still a small probability but to tell you the truth, i'm a bit freaked out. so, keep your fingers crossed for me. i know i'm definitely keeping mine crossed...

i just came back from watching the japan vs brazil match. as an asian, you all know who i was rooting for. i think i was over enthusiastic when japan scored a goal. in an almost empty pub, my celebration scream and claps had everyone's attention. i composed myself and slumped down in my seat, embarrased. my happy grin was quickly wiped off when the slowest brazilian of the bunch, ronaldo, scored the equaliser just before half time. and we all know what happened in the second half, so no need for me to revisit the painful memory.

oh, i've been asked a lot of times what my msn nick quote means.

"ani mana parternya?"

sigh.. i shall explain. when i was out watching a movie with the 3 couples, we met a bruneian family that they knew on the way to the cinema. the mom noticed that the couples were holding hands.. sigh.. and then she noticed me..

"ani mana partnernya?" she asked bluntly... yes.. ouch..

which made me realise how sad my life is. i was out with people who actually could be called were having a triple date! i'm gonna die alone aren't i? if i weren't living on the ground floor, i'd jump out the window right now.

anyway, on to the main topic of the post!

i was doing my laundry (of a month's worth) this afternoon and guess what. i put in a 6 pairs of socks in with the rest of my stuff and when i went to get them back out, 2 halves were missing! i heard stories of this strange phenomenon but i've never believed it to be true until today... strange... very strange...

i told you, you'd be disappointed.

laters

speeding cars & sinking ships

i had a an okay day today. woke up at 10.30am, which is insanely early for a saturday morning.. went out with 'the couples' (they know who they are... hehe) to southampton. finally collected my phone back from the vodafone. it's workin' good now even though i don't really care that much about it actually. i only had it for 2months now and i'm really bored of it already! i feel like getting a new phone. if it wasn't for that stupid mix up with the bank i'd buy one right now!

damn credit card.. for those of you who don't know the story yet, here it is. i bought my electric drums, (which i named lisa.) over a month ago and i paid using my credit card. i thought i arranged my end-of-month payment to be, 5% or more of my credit card usage. but something went wrong and it seems i applied for a FULL PAYMENT. imagine my shock and disbelief when i checked my credit card account online.

payment - £449 (thank you)

at first my thoughts were, "huh? someone paid my credit card bill? dad? nah... can't be... unless it's my..."

*checks bank account*

payment (credit card) - £499
current balance - £338 D

"holy freakin' crap..."

i paid lisa in full! how close was i to having a heart-attack? very close... some of you may not know this but that 'D' is NOT a good thing... it means, i owe the bank that amount...
so yeah... it's a lean month for me, it seems...
that's why i was very hesitant on coming along with the guys who were planning on going for a movie marathon. watching 2 movies back to back. but i didn't want to miss watching all the cool cars and not to mention the hot chicks that goes great next to them in fast & the furious: tokyo drift. the second movie caught my interest too, poseiden. seeing that i work on ships, i wanted to watch how accurate the movie is to real life. it was pretty good actually.
fast & the furious was nyeeehhh... i didn't like the characters in it. the hero acts so cocky and what the hell is up with the cowboy accent?! but the movie is all about the cars. and excluding the actors, it's an awesome movie.

happy birthday to a very close friend of mine, fish! miss hanging out with you!
laters

random ramblings..

not much to post.. it's been a dull day. went to boring lectures, watched the england-trinidad game (yes! england through to the final 16 baby!), had a burger for dinner and had a long nap and woke up at 10pm.. that's why i'm still wide awake and i have a long day tomorrow! yikes! oh! i finally finished prison break season 1! it's freakin' cool! for those of you who've never watched it or even heard of it, you don't know what you're missing!
it's been a dull week. i'm glad weekend's just around the corner. well, i'd be more excited about it if i had any plans.. but i don't.. i might just go to southampton and finally get my phone back! it's been repaired for 3weeks now! haha! so yeah, i might just do that. fifah, yani & memie are comin' over this weekend. that'll light things up.
not much to post really.
i miss iffah ':( that's where i usually be on the weekend. with iffah at brunei hall. (iffah! i need your contact details pronto!) i haven't been there for 2weeks now. to ali & mel; sorry i can't be there in london. hope you guys have a blast of a time. good luck to you ali! *wink wink* hehe. have fun in the us mel! i'll go next week, most probably the last time until everyone comes back from summer holz. it's gonna be a really dull summer for me. and with the warm weather, i hope i can cope. it's gettin' freakin hot man! i'm also contemplating whether i should cut my hair or not. i wanted to grow it long but it's annoying me now. maybe i should just trim it. i definitely need to dye it though.

i saw a very cool movie trailer! it's called the lake house, it's about this woman (sandra bullock) who sends love letters to this guy (keanu reeves) through her mailbox but he receives them instantly cause her mailbox is his mailbox! they live at the same exact lake house but 2 years apart! i'm not a big fan of chick-flicks but this i have to watch! -> the lake house

well, i'll sign off now but before i do, i have to share a really true funny story! this guy, (whom shall be nameless or else he'll kill me!) fell asleep in class and this teacher said to him,
"a blink usually takes less than a second, any longer than that, it's considered sleeping... and bloody hell that was a f*cking long blink!"
hahahahaha! funniest damn thing i've ever heard! the lecturer is such a wise ass..

alright. laters!

here we go...

the crowd cheers or jeers ferociously as they watch 2 oppossing troups fight for the sacred globe. for a whole 90 gruesome minutes, they may endure horrific injuries, a bloody head or muscle pains that could last for days from the fearsome battle. out on the battlefield the 22 mentally strong men have only one thing in mind... to win. legs tired and heavy like lead, they still run... when they fall to the ground, they get up... when it seemed all hope is lost, they pray some more...

why you ask? because they know they are the few chosen ones... they are the representative of their own glorious badges. their armours bore their home crest. every 4 years, 32 countries from all over the world wage war against eachother for the golden cup of life. 31 go home crying but only one goes home with their heads held up high, knowing that they are the best.

unless you've been living under a rock for most of your life, you'd know i'm talking about

!!! the world cup!!!

yes! after waiting 4 very long years, the infamous world cup is finally upon us! as if i wasn't already very fortunate enough to watch the euro2004 here in uk, i get to watch the event of all footballing events here as well! i have to say i feel very sorry for all the people back home who has to watch it in the horrible hours of the mornings, while i, on the other hand, watch it anywhere that has a tv, with the sun blazing down on the very nice weather. i know, life is just not fair sometimes... ':)

so, want to know my predictions? my heart says england but not only because i'm in their home soil, i also happen to be a big fan of the team. they'r also a strong team on paper. they have a very powerful midfield with becks, gerrard and lampard. and when rooney's fit, he can be a handful for the opposing defenders. and they have terry, ferdinand, cole and neville for defence! and with robinson as keeper, they should be really solid at the back.

BUT, my head says it's gonna be brazil's year again... need i say more? just the name alone, gives you flashbacks of what ronaldinho can do, how ronaldo can put it behind the net so easily and how carlos can swerve those free kicks in... *shivers*

but we may see an upset this year like in the euro2004. (wished i had put money on greece. 50/1 chance of winning... man... the money i could've won) but with the world's best teams here, i hardly doubt it..

so, sit back in your comfiest chair, chow down to the most unhealthiest snack and scream at your tv screens 'til your throat hurts. i cannot think of anyone who isn't excited about this.

oh right... except for my sister, whom i shall break all connections with until the world cup ends.

bowling? no thanks!

another weekend in london, another one heck of a time!
as usual, i shocked most of the brunei hall peeps (this is what i shall call them on my blog. hehe) by dropping by on them unexpectedly. it was only that monday i just waved them goodbye. usually my visits would mean, i'm bored to death over at the dead-of-a-town warsash and would very much enjoy the company of my london friends. ':) but this time, however, i came to see my close friend, amy! the last time i saw her here was when she came here the first time! and london was her quick stop before heading home for the summer. so, i didn't want to waste the chance of the usual laughing sessions with her!

so i went to the station at 7.30 in the freakin' morning! i yawned all the way there. you'd be yawning too if slept at 3am after playin' cards all night long.. anyway, poor thing.. i don't know what amy would do without me! she had a lot of heavy luggage! just taking her stuff 30feet to the coffee shop, she had to take short breaks in between! haha!
during her very short stay, we just walked around, hung out and i sent her off that afternoon. too bad she wasn't there for very long.. but i had fun. ':)

the rest of the weekend was definitely not bad either. hung out a lot with waida & farhana! during the nights, we used cards to determine who'd be the 'anak ambuk' (kan far? hehe) and during daylight; window shop, nahar-ing, pool, picture sessions (lots of 'em!) and the so-not my personal favourite, bowling! haha! i had a very fun time guys, thanks a lot!

before i sign off, to everyone who's goin' or already gone for summer holz, have a fun and safe time! enjoy!

picnic

a weekend with cloudless sky and bright sunshine could only mean one thing...
PICNIC!!!
yup, that's what i did with the brunei hall ppl. a good ol' picnic at hyde park! it had been raining for the past few days, so fingers were crossed praying for a sunny day that weekend. early that morning, signs were lookin' good. weather was beautiful, all the food were ready. now, the only thing left was to wait for everyone to get ready. rendezvous time was 1.45pm... ofcourse, we finally left at 2.30pm! it got a bit cloudy which made everyone a bit nervous but no signs of dark clouds.
after a VERY long walk through hyde park, we finally decided to pick a spot in between some trees in front of the lake.

we ate, shisha'd but the most fun part were the games we played! we played all this kiddy game we could think of that we used to play when we were little.
anyway, pictures speak louder than words.

thanks again for the fun weekend guys! sorry i can't be in portsmouth with you.. have fun! i'll see you this weekend!

5 simple words

"I have feelings for you..."

Only 5 simple words but so hard to say. Ever seen those TV dramas where one person has feelings for another, they easily confesses. No matter what love triangles or circumstances they were involved in. They would always come out and tell them. Always. And the drama unfolds from there. and no matter how bad the result in the end will be, it'll work out fine. Don't you wish real life was that simple?
Well, it can. Just go up to the person and just say those 5 simple words.
"I have feelings for you..."
I know you're laughing at my face and think that what I'm saying is one of the stupidest things you've ever heard. Am I really the stupid one? I bet you're sitting there thinking,
he/she won't go for me...
I don't have any chance...

oh really? how can you be so sure? even though you think you have 3% chance the person will go for you, that's still a chance. am i right? what you lack is not confidence... it's courage.
it's been A VERY LONG time since i had butterflies in my stomach. and this time, it's a huge-ass butterfly.. most of the time, i'm not sure what to do. people are rooting for me. but i'm having a hard time rooting for myself. yes.. low-self esteem, i know. but if you know what i'm going for, you'd think the same thing.. the best of everything rolled into this undescribable beauty. and i'm not the only one persuing.. why should i be chosen from the rest? what can i offer that no one else can outdo? people say i'm doing fine. i'm not sure if i am though.. it's very hard to tell from the responses i get. anyone else in the same situation?
here's my advice which i also follow.. be patient. give it your all. if you don't you'll kick yourself in the back side in the future.. if it is everything you'll ever need, you'll definitely wait.. and this butterfly in my stomach is definitely worth the wait...
i know saying it online isn't the same with actually telling them face to face... i didn't say i had that much courage either... hehe. but for now, here goes my amount of courage...

"to that someone out there, i have feelings for you... and if one day you feel the same about me, i'll express this feeling in far more than 5 words..."